Let It Go

I think the human mind can be a vast wasteland of unbridled thoughts misconceptions and self righteous pantomimes by which we fool ourselves into thinking all is good in our lives. Forever pushing aside anything that might bring our focus to the facts because we may not like what we find, we stumble through life turning away from what we should face. Is this a bad thing or is it a self preservation technique use by the subconscious to save us from more grief than we can handle? Why is it so hard sometimes to surrender to the problem, whatever form it takes, and let it go?

A lifeline for some is a hangman’s noose to others such as drinking or drugs. For some it provides a brief respite, a way to soothe the savage nightmare. For others it’s a downward spiral to the depth’s of despair, a never ending decay of ones willpower that leads to death. I have been down both roads and lived.

I was hiding behind a mask of sorrow I did not ask for, not realizing I had control over my response to it. What saved me was not any person be it councilor or friend, family or other. What saved me was watching my troubles walk away as I broke free of my self induced fear of rejection, my lust for acceptance. I left behind that supple heart of clay for a heart of stone.

That heart of stone can still be shaped though it is more difficult. It takes time and effort to carve out the spirit hiding within and set it free. As a work in progress I’m making up for lost time at a fevered pace, thinking through my past looking for clues to shape my stone the right way and step into the light. I will walk away from my fears and begin anew with the power of my soul and live again.

So many people tell us how to live, how to think. So many think they have the answers for all just because they have positions of power. They fail to understand who put them there, and many of us forget why we did. The circle of incredulous views sometimes astounds me with it’s ignorance.

Spewing hate filled rants based on race or religion by either side of an argument will accomplish nothing but division, something I think many seek in the name of power. I’m wide awake, I’m no longer sleeping, and I see whats happening in this world and it may not end well. I’m neither an optimist nor a pessimist but rather place myself in the middle so I can see both sides. I hope for the best but plan for the worst, and do so with the intent of leaving others to do the same. I wish you all well and may we someday live in peace.

If you twist and turn away
If you tear yourself in two again
If I could, yes I would
If I could, I would
Let it go
Surrender
Dislocate

If I could throw this
Lifeless lifeline to the wind
Leave this heart of clay
See you walk, walk away
Into the night
And through the rain
Into the half-light
And through the flame

If I could through myself
Set your spirit free
I’d lead your heart away
See you break, break away
Into the light
And to the day

To let it go
And so to fade away
To let it go
And so fade away

I’m wide awake
I’m wide awake
Wide awake
I’m not sleeping
Oh, no, no, no

If you should ask then maybe they’d
Tell you what I would say
True colors fly in blue and black
Blue silken sky and burning flag
Colors crash, collide in blood shot eyes

If I could, you know I would
If I could, I would
Let it go…

This desperation
Dislocation
Separation
Condemnation
Revelation
In temptation
Isolation
Desolation
Let it go

And so fade away
To let it go
And so fade away
To let it go
And so to fade away

I’m wide awake
I’m wide awake
Wide awake
I’m not sleeping
Oh, no, no, no

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