Your Own Personal Jesus

I have a habit of being an impulsive person prone to following whatever takes over my mind as I bend to outside influences. Sometimes tragedy follows those decisions but a lesson is hidden in each occurrence. This is a pattern of my existence on this earth formed I believe in part by my bi-polar condition and life events that preceded this point in time. Although I sometimes feel out of control, I have learned to settle my mind and let better judgement take over before I make rash decisions I may regret later. There is wisdom to be gained and I think it is a result of time and willpower pushing down impulsive behaviors that leads us there. It’s up to each of us to find that wisdom and heed it’s call.

Can you overthink a situation? I believe so and it can bring about much indecision and doubt. Life is like a high wire we must try to balance upon, a narrow string that can lead to happiness or sorrow depending on our innately weak human minds. Many people form a construct in their minds of a belief or being, a personal faith that will possibly provide the answers to life’s questions we find so hard to answer. Their own personal Jesus to guide their actions to attain peace and tranquility. I say to each their own and to all, good luck.

My personal Jesus is held within, a subtle voice that compels me to follow my heart while considering the outcome of each action. As I age I feel a deeper need to retreat from society as a whole and find a place that I have some control over. How and where I was born nor what race or upbringing I have been subjected to are not something I can change, but my response to the outcome is in my hands. I am the ultimate controller of my achievements on this earth be they good or bad, I am the one who will write in the book of life the value of my influence during my time.

My faith lives in the vision I hold of a life well lived. A vision of time spent in individual pursuits of self reliance and responsibility, relying on ones wits and abilities. A learning process wrought with difficulty and triumph brought forth with ones own hands. The pioneer spirit that built this country and others lives within me and is bursting forth as a need to live in the land, not just on it. I feel I have reached a tipping point in my life and the next few months will decide if I am to continue as I have or branch out to a more noble and primitive pursuit. I think I can see my own personal Jesus and it’s up to me whether I follow or not.

Reach out and touch faith

Your own personal Jesus
Someone to hear your prayers
Someone who cares
Your own personal Jesus
Someone to hear your prayers
Someone who’s there

Feeling unknown
And you’re all alone
Flesh and bone
By the telephone
Lift up the receiver
I’ll make you a believer

Take second best
Put me to the test
Things on your chest
You need to confess
I will deliver
You know I’m a forgiver

Reach out and touch faith
Reach out and touch faith

Your own personal Jesus
Someone to hear your prayers
Someone who cares
Your own personal Jesus
Someone to hear your prayers
Someone who’s there

Feeling unknown
And you’re all alone
Flesh and bone
By the telephone
Lift up the receiver
I’ll make you a believer
I will deliver
You know I’m a forgiver

Reach out and touch faith

Your own personal Jesus

Reach out and touch faith

4 thoughts on “Your Own Personal Jesus

  1. If I met my maker tomorrow, I would have just 1 question…what in the world was I supposed to be doing, because OBVIOUSLY I screwed it up! Maybe our job was to find the crappy roads so we could tell others where the good road is…

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